Oi Evans! {Lily}

[lilyevans]

She looked at him and was getting slightly irritated. She did not comment on his question about whether the locked door was supposed to keep others out or him in. “I tried to listen to you, Potter. You’re the one that had to screw that up. Look, I’m here, aren’t I? If I didn’t want to figure out what the bloody hell that was all about I wouldn’t be here. Now would I?”

She made a valid point, of course James was being arrogant as per usual. Something she couldn’t understand why. Of course now was not the time to be blurring the lines here. She had every reason to do what she had done now that she had gotten his attention. “What do you mean what’d I do? I didn’t do anything, Potter.” She responded as she was getting rather irritated at how she was supposed to deal with him.

The two of them alone could end with some very nasty consequences.

When Potter walked toward her, she didn’t do anything but watch him. “No, clearly you don’t. If you did you wouldn’t be starting the same crap year after year. You think I’m blind? I know that you two have hated eachother for years and that your mates share the same sentiment toward him that you do. I also know that he’s not ever going to trust any of you, and with good reason. Now, I never expected you lot to hold hands, and suddenly become eachother’s best friend, or something like that. Because it’d take more than a miracle for all of you to get along completely as I know that’d never happen. I’m not that stupid.” She sighed as she looked at him.

She was getting to the point where she was beginning to question why she bothered even being around him. “I didn’t bring you in here just to talk about him. I just....I don’t get you. At all.” She responded as what she wanted more than anything was to understand what he was up to, what he wanted from her. “What were you expecting to happen when you pulled that stunt out there? When you....when you kissed me? I mean were you expecting me to just fall for it? Because I’ll tell you, going after a girl’s best friend whether you like them or not is not a surefire way to win someone over. Especially me. I’ve known the guy over half my life, and it’s kind of hard to think of him being as much of a git as you think he is. But there’s no point in bringing him up, as I can see it just irritates you and that’s not what I’m trying to do, anyway.” She was trying to be as cautious as always. She wanted to know if there was a reason why Potter just kept going after her. She knew he liked her, that much had been obvious. She didn't hate Potter after all.

“I tried to not see things as I usually do, and I meant what I said earlier. I was willing to try and be your friend....because I’m not like you. I don’t just snog someone just because I could. I try to get to know someone first before jumping into situations like that.Which if you actually knew me you would have known that by now.” She was hesitant about saying the next part, as she knew, with Potter, his ego would go through the roof. “For what it’s worth, I don’t think you’re all that bad. A bit of a nuisance perhaps but aside from that, not bad.” She knew he most likely would have her elaborate on what she meant. She just didn’t know how to explain it. All she wanted was to talk to him but he was making that almost impossible!

[James Potter]

James scoffed. ”I don’t think it works like that, Lily. It’s not the case of ‘you’re here’ – you dragged me in here. More like I’m here.” He really wished he could understand her sometimes. One minute she was screaming at him, the next she was just talking nicely, the next she was trying to hex him, the next wanting to talk to him in random classrooms, the next screaming and shouting at him again. This girl changed moods faster than a chameleon changed its color!

Not to mention her trying to curse him or something. As expected, Lily denied having tried to do anything, and once again, James scoffed. ”Sure.” He said sarcastically. ”You didn’t try and do anything and that completely explains why you pointed your wand at me and light flew out of it. Because you obviously didn’t do anything.” Nice try and all, but generally people didn’t cast spells that didn’t do anything. There was always a purpose. He just wish he knew exactly what she’d been aiming to achieve from whatever spell she’d just sent his way. Well… at least it didn’t appear to have done anything that he could tell…

James didn’t stop walking towards her, just kept slowly moving in. He wanted to draw her back as far from the door as he could. Point being, at this very moment, he didn’t know what she wanted or what she was trying to do, and therefore didn’t exactly trust her at right now.

James rolled his eyes. ”You said it. That severe dislike goes both ways. It’s not just that I don’t like him, it’s he doesn’t like me either. He doesn’t like any of us. Being honest, he started it on our very first train journey to school… Before then actually. Before the train even left King’ Cross. So do not lump all of this on me!” There was no way that he was to blame for everything. It wasn’t that James and the others got on the train, took one look at Snape, and said ‘hmm, yeah, I think we’re gunna choose him to hate for the next seven years.’ It didn’t work like that at all. Snape deserved and earned their dislike. Whatever had happened since then was his own fault, not James’s.

As for the rest of what Lily said – about them never being friends and her not expecting them to or whatever it was – he didn’t bother responding to that. She was right. They were never going to get on and just be friends. No way. Not a chance. It didn’t happen like that and nor would it ever. After some of the things that Snape had said and done over the years, James was never going to just ‘forgive and forget’ as the saying went. That just wasn’t possible.

”You don’t get me? Is this the point where I point out that you’re impossible to understand, or the point where I say that you don’t ‘get’ me because you’ve never given me the chance? Seriously, you won’t even let yourself just see me, your vision is always clouded by misguided judgment or whatever. If you’d stop forcing yourself to see what you want to see and started just seeing what’s there, then maybe things would be different.” James knew it was true. Lily had these… ideas that she’d formed about him and she wouldn’t even consider that maybe, even if they were once true, that now he was older those ideas and beliefs may not apply anymore. He wasn’t the eleven year old she first met any more. He was 15 – almost 16, but she wouldn’t even let her self take a step back, forget her expectation for a minute, and just stop and think if they actually applied to him anymore. She always just forced herself to see what wasn’t there, just because she thought it had to be. To say it annoyed the hell out of him would be an understatement, and if this was his moment to point that out to her? Well, he wasn’t going to take it. He was fed up and being judged off the person he used to be, rather than the one he was now.

Lily kept talking, going back to the point about him kissing her before they ended up in here. He didn’t miss how she stumbled over saying it either. ”You make it seem so hard to say. It was a kiss, Lily - nothing horrifying or forbidden. You can say the word.” He rolled his eyes. Well, at least she hadn’t started screaming and spitting and looking thoroughly disgusted when he kissed her like he probably expected that she would. ”I thought you said we didn’t have to talk about him anymore, and quite frankly, I’d rather we didn’t.”

He sighed. ”I didn’t expect anything. I knew you’d react the way you did. In fact, I thought you’d react worse. What was I supposed to expect? You’re too stubborn and set in your beliefs to ever change your mind where I’m concerned. As said, you have expectations of me now and you’ll never allow yourself to see past them.

”You might say you meant them, but I can’t honestly believe that you’d ever just let them drop just like that and be able to stop judging me based on the past. You can’t. It’s not in your nature. And believe me, I didn’t expect anything to come from that. One kiss could never change the mind of someone as stubborn as you are. I doubt a thousand kissed could.” He laughed. He knew that it was going to be an impossible task trying to change her mind, but honestly? It was a challenge he kind of wanted to try. He liked her. A lot. More than she could realize. He knew that he probably didn’t show it in the best way, but he really, really did like her. Despite her stubbornness and bad choice of friends, he still thought she was pretty much perfect.

James wasn’t expecting to hear her next words, and for a few moments only stood and stared at her, unsure whether she actually meant those words or not. ”After everything you said, even just today, I find that exceptionally hard to believe…”

[lilyevans]

This was all a simple mistake. “Actually you’re the one that forced me to deal with you. Since you had to be the arrogant one and try and do a stupid stunt like you pulled outside of Charms. Look, it’s not that hard. I was trying to be nice....which clearly is a mistake.” She was trying to be civil, which was not going to be easy. He made it all the more difficult to do so. Of course, she knew she wasn’t making things easier either.

She had a good heart and knew how to use it, but it was hard to give someone like James a chance at anything when he would abuse it.

He wasn’t horrible, but he wasn’t good either. His bad side far outweighed the good in her mind, and that was something she was trying not to judge him by. “Are you sure you’re not seeing things Potter?”

She remarked as she looked at him. She stood where she was, near the door, not moving, even as he approached her. She didn’t trust him.

“Don’t you think I know that? I knew the dislike was mutual. I’ve been his best friend since before coming to Hogwarts. It’s not just about you, you know. Do you know why I defend him so fiercely? We were nine when we met. At that point my world was simple.”

She sighed as she thought about whether to get into the situation regarding Severus but she had to at least explain things though she didn’t know why. She listened to what he had to say. And she wasn’t completely lumping it on him as he so delicately put it. She felt like she had to defend him and their friendship though why she wasn’t entirely sure.

The point was she knew that Severus and James...as well as his crew of troublemakers were never going to see eye to eye on anything.

”There was no grey in it. And here there is. But....finding out what I did, through Severus, it wasn’t easy. He’s the one that told me I was a witch to begin with. And then recieving word that I was invited to Hogwarts, Severus taught me all he knew....so coming here....it was both a blessing and a curse. A blessing because I could be with my best friend but at the same time, I was leaving my family behind, and I’d always been close to them.” She was reminded of the past of what had started it all at King’s Cross station. And it wasn't a great memory.

” What is so bloody impossible is trying to stand by someone that I care about and just have it all completely disregarded. It’s not about you. It never was. Misguided? I don’t think so, I think it’s well placed. What am I supposed to not be seeing? Different? What do you mean exactly?” Now the witch was curious and she wanted to know more. Needed to know more.

She ran a hand through her hair, she was trying very hard not to hex him....and to remain as civil as she could possibly be. Though it was becoming more difficult by the moment. She did not like how things were turning out and he was a most difficult guy to reason with.

She could not get the kiss out of her mind but she tried to ignore it as answers needed to come first. “I know. You kissed me...but what I don’t get is why. Aside from the fact you caught me off guard with it. We don’t....I’m just...I’m trying to figure things out that’s all. Too stubborn? I think you have that backwards. I don’t have set expectations on anything, in particular, at least I try not to. But when I see you pulling the same bloody moves year after year....what choice do I have? I protect Severus just like you would Remus, Sirius or even Peter. Same difference. You have your loyalties and I have mine. God Potter! You think everything I do is revolved around pleasing someone? I don’t think so. You don’t know me, Potter. You only think you do. You make it seem like that kiss was actually life-changing. Don’t count your chickens before they hatch as my father would say.”

God was he trying to make her life a living hell?

“You’re difficult....but then again that’s because all guys are, in one form or another. The one thing I have noticed is your unfailing quality about being there for your mates. As whenever one of them needs you, you’re right there. Whether it’s dealing with Severus or if it’s dealing with another Slytherin. I know you’ve been trying to get my attention, for a while....I’m not blind.....but I...what I don’t get is why?”